Saturday, November 04, 2006
4 hours of sleep,a football match and a long day ahead,and what do you get?Sigh...Woke up to the sounds of the beating of my heart,telling me how broken it was,beating its slow rhythmically beat.The beats sounded out of proportions,as it no longer beat with that joy and happiness of a new day.
Pushed away like I never existed.Squeezed to the max.All my feelings are being drained,leaving me with 1 big mess,too much to clean up,that its hurting me.Left all alone,and I realized,that here's the part of life,thats evaded me for a long while,and now,its back to haunt me.I haven't felt this low for a long time.
However,came to a realization,that maybe its time to stop letting my emotions get the better of me.Enough is enough! Tired of constantly giving in to its seduction,and being endlessly emotionally drained.Fight to keep it out of me.A long day ahead it seems,but then again,the journey always seemed perilious.
Will fight to survive,and get this obsession off my back.This pain,well,live with it.I ain't gonna be a sucker for emoness anymore.Get outta my life! Emoness no more.Pushing everything aside,I'll travel on,not knowing what's in store for me.I'll just live life the way it was meant to be,hopefully,never in solitude.
A new start.Press on.
-Matt-