Good morning.Woke up this morning and then,a thought came to me.What happens to a promise you made to someone but then its not worth keeping anymore?Should I continue to keep my promise?Well,I did some thinking.If would be pointless to keep a promise that holds no meaning or value,right?

But well,I've given my word and I'll keep my promise whether its worth anything or not.*Sigh* I didn't heed my friend's warning who told me not to make promises without thinking properly. But I guess,I really did think of the consequences.But I didn't know I would be in this position where I've been screwed and its no use keeping it.I couldn't have possibly thought of this outcome.

But I don't think I've any regrets.If you knew the kinda promise I made,you would think I'm stupid to continue keeping it now.But,a promise is a promise.Especially when its the most important promise you ever made in life.No expectations,but I'm a man of my word.

Well,this post would serve as a reminder.It'll always remind me of what I'm keeping.Its gonna be a long and lonely 1 and a half years.But,in the end,I would know that I've seen my promise through and I won't feel guilty to anyone.

With no feelings of regret,today,I,Matthew Chang Keng Yan,make a promise to keep the promise(s) that I made no matter what its worth,and to keep my word,no matter how long it'll take.With this,as far as promises are concerned,I will always try to keep my promises and never break em,unless its concerning "Life or Death" situations.

I guess with this,I bid you all goodbye.Have a good week!Peace out!

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Well...You won't believe it,but today's not that bad after all.It started off not to well.But my dad started to ask me why I was so down and all over the past 2 days.Finally,I told him everything on the way back from college.Such a relieve.He actually took it rather well.

He was even smiling.Then he gave me advice and all.And finally,he prayed with me.Feel so much better now.He told me that I can always talk to him about anything.Didn't know he would take it with so much understanding.I was pleasantly surprised.Just thank God for such understanding parents.Its been great.I feel so much better now.Told me it was normal at this stage of life to have that kinda feelings.

And today,during lunch break,we went across to Centrepoint's Secret Recipe.My gosh.Blow a big hole in my pocket.Lunch cost me 13 bucks!!!! Crazy...6 of us eat cost us 115 bucks. But the food nice la.Well,other then that,today ain't so bad.Guess I'll blog longer next time.Gotta go off to piano lesson.Peace out.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Well,I mentioned earliar that I'll be back to blog if there's anything nice to talk about.Still feel really really sad and depressed.Just found out some shocking news from someone I know.The root of my problems.And its such a stupid reason,I can't believe it.Proved 1 of my suspicions right.Can't believe thats the reason why I got hurt.The worst thing is,I didn't even hear it straight from the source,I heard it from a 3rd party.

The ironic thing was,even teacher thought I was too quiet today in class.Wierd.Well,I guess the good thing about my friends in college,can never stay sad 1.And I guess my accounts exam results is okay la.1 wrong.Sad.I'm not the highest.Someone else got full marks.Oh well,at least English I'm the highest.Thats all I guess.

Oh yeah.And I only paid 45 sens for a beef burger and a sundae cone.Thanks to Sam's RM10 McD Voucher.*Sigh* Feeling terribly sad and depressed again.I gotta sign off,before I start crying.

Signing out,
-Matt-

Ever got hurt by someone so bad,who doesn't even care what happens to you,and you can't pick yourself up?*Sigh* I had a lousy night. I can't believe it but I actually cried. For the very 1st time, I cried not because I was punished,or not I was watching a sad story.I cried because it hurts.1st time in my life I ever cried over something like this.

Not only that,couldn't sleep for 2 hours and only had 5 hours of sleep.Now,this never happens.I always sleep like a baby.Put me in bed and I'll doze off pretty fast.I just wanna thank my favourite cousin in the whole wide world,my dearest Ashley.If you're reading this,you're the best cousin in the world.Thanks for staying up till 2 in the morning just to chat and sms.And those loads of advices you gave me.I owe you 1.I'll treat ya this Friday? =/

Now I'm so tired,I hope I'll be able to concetrate in college.Its just not the tiredness,I'm just not in the mood to do anything already.Thankfully,my exams are over,except for the Econs paper on the 15th of June.So I have about 2 weeks to recover.Sounds impossible,but well,I gotta try.Its strange,but I've never felt this sad before.

Even rejection never tasted this bitter before.*Sigh* Wonder if I'll ever open up again.it just sucks so bad.I'v experienced the highest and the best moment in my life, as well as the lowest and the worst moment in my life,all in the short time of 1 and a half month's.Well,so much for being nice.All the perceptions and the lies.Still can't believe it happened.

But,maybe I only have myself to blame.I guess,its my responsibility.So maybe I deserved such a cruel ending?Maybe...So many "maybe's." I guess,I went against my better judgement.Hoping against hope that it'll never happen,but it did.In a way,I guess I'll learn to choose my friends more carefully,like they say "Never judge a book by its cover."Guess I should have known better.Looks can be deceiving...

I think I look like a panda now.Gotta do alot of stuff.Lets see if I can survive through today.Maybe I'll blog again later.This sad depression thingy's really getting on my nerves.I hate myself for being so weak,but yet,I can't help but wonder,that maybe it isn't that bad after all.Maybe being weak isn't so bad after all,because I've never felt this weak and helpless before.The only thing I can hope for is,that the hatred generated inside of me won't last long.

After all,how can you hate someone you love so much?I guess the truth is,I'm stupid.Stupid enough,to ever fall into this.But I've learned from it.A valuable lesson in life.And maybe,someday...I'll forgive myself.The ironic thing is,Chris just spoke about "Failure" yesterday.Wonder if it applies to me...Guess I'll be back here after college.See if there's anything to blog about.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Just a day when it had all the makings of a good week.And you hear the worst possible news to screw it all.Never felt anything like this before.Its a mixture of all the worst feelings in the world.So inconsolable.Nothing matters anymore.Wonder if I'll ever feel happy again.

Does crying help?Cause I so wanna do that right now.Maybe it was a mistake on my part.I guess it was my fault all along.But well,I don't wanna think about it.I hope someday I'll carry on.But for now,everything looks bleak.Nothing seems right anymore.Its like I've lost it all.Something's missing.

Don't feel like blogging.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Hi peeps.Its Friday.Just had lunch.And now,I'm bored.Its been a lousy week except for a few exceptional moments.Everything went screwed up,except for my results,thank God.Sometimes I wonder when I'll get over the mountain.Once I've reached the peak,only to find,that it goes down another valley and comes up to another mountain.

Sometimes,I find it hard to live the life I lead.I guess I gotta learn to draw my strength from Him.It just kinda sucks when you don't have the mood to do anything,or worse,you lose your will to live.Sigh...I hate myself for feeling like this.We should live our life to the max right?Enjoy everything while we can?I wanna learn how to do that.

Homework also lazy to to.Haha...Stupid accounts la.Everytime got no other homework except accounts.It really sucks.Waiting for June to come.Hopefully it'll be a better month,not to mention extra busy.As if it ain't bad enough,wanted to watch X-men: The Last Stand tomorrow,but the stupid GSC at Midvalley all fully booked.Even Over the Hedge and MI3 also fully booked.Lousy cinema.Go renovate and get more halls la.

Got lots of stuff to do today also.Excluding homework,got other chores and responsibilities to handle.Sigh...I need a holiday.Maybe tomorrow will be a good break.I don't know.Can't wait for my term break,which seems so far away.I need to go out.Well,I don't wanna complain too much.Got lots of good stuff to do in college too. Football twice a week.Chilling with friends.You guys in college make it all fun and worthwhile.

Everytime I'm in college,I forget everything thats ever happened.All my problems disappear.Enjoying myself in college.Hehe...Been going out quite a bit lately.So,its not all gloom.But well,problems always seem to overshadow it all.Sometimes,I feel its way bigger than me.Too much to handle.Tired...Weekends are refreshing.God just works in wonders.Always come back refreshed to face all the nonsense the next week brings.

Didn't think I would be in this situation.Sometimes,I wonder why this happens,or that happens.But well,the only way is to remind myself that all things happen for a reason.Wonder what'll happen next.1 things for sure,I'm gonna be stronger and face it with all I've got,even if I feel like giving up at times.Nothing's gonna hold me back,hopefully.

Blogging's so fun.Can crap and let it all out.It helps a lil. =P That'll be all.Got lots of stuff to do.Lets hope the coming week will be far far better.Screw this week la.Always looking for a better week.I'm sure I'll be seeing 1 real soon.Peace out!

Signing out,
-Matt-

"Thinking of executing the Unthinkable" - Matt

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl... "Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked. "I can't" "Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me. "Noâ?¦ I am going to meet a friend..."

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word 'love' only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days...200days... Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why... Then one day... Me: Um, Jin, I... Jin: Whatâ?¦don't drag, just say... Me: I love you. Jin: ...you....um, just take this doll and go home. That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many... Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But... lunch passed, dinner passed... and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call............ It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.

Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily. Me: Jin... Jin: Here...take this... Again, he handed me a little doll. Me: What's this? Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye. Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is? Jin: Today? Huh? I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted... "Wait..." Jin: You have something to say? Me: Tell me, tell me you love meâ?¦ Jin: What?! Me: Tell me I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left. "I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily... How could he... I felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for me... After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street...with another girl... He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll... I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell... Why did he gave these to me... Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls... In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that... it's going to end.

Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll. Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came? I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual... Me: I don't need it. Jin: What....why... I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road. Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again! I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking. "I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll... Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!! But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then... Honk~ Honk~ With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him. "Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted... But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll. "Jin, move!" HONK~!! "Boom!" That sound, so terrifying. That's how he went away from me. That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...

And after spending two months like a crazy person... I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days...when we were in love... "One...two... three..." That was how... I started to count the dolls... "Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..." It all ended with 485 dolls. I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly... "I love you~, I love you~" I dropped the dolls,shocked. "I...lo..ve...you??" I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach. "I love you~ I love you~" It can't be! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side. "I love you~" "I love you~" "I love you~" Those words came out non-stop. I...love you... Why didn't I realize that............ That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn't I realize that he love me this much... I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much... "Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um...since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..." The tears came flowing out of me............ Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...

For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life.... It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose someone that you love with your useless pride !but whatever it is think before you take any action dont be a third party ;)

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Yea. Exams are over! Just finished my Accounts and English exams this week! Next exam will be Econs,which is on the 15th.Bah...scared of that.Stupid Maths exam.Careless mistakes cost me full marks.Getting near full is never good enough sometimes.Sadz...Well,things seem to be going back to its usual monotonous cycle.

Getting more sien.College is fun though.Lots of new stuff to learn.I've got a noisy bunch of guys for friends everyday.And McD and Centrepoint just across.What more can you ask for?And of course the occasional trips to 1U.I need a car.Haha...

Hmm...maybe I don't miss secondary school that bad anymore.Haha...Can't wait for June to come.Get to go places.Youth Alive Conference coming up real soon! How cool is that. World Cup also coming. Go England!! To all those who support the favourite's,Brazil,haha,you better pray hard.Cause England's gonna win this year's World Cup!

Since got nothing to say already,I'll be signing off.Today I can't seem to talk crap.Haha.Peace out!

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

A girl once asked a guy if he thought she was pretty.
He said...No!

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever.
Again he replied...No!

She then asked him if she were to leave,would he cry.
Once again,he replied...No!

She had heard enough.
As she walked away with tears streaming down her face,
the boy grabbed her hand and said...

You're not pretty,you're beautiful.

I don't want to be with you forever,
I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldn't cry if you walked away,
I would die.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Its Sunday night.And,the cycle starts again.Haiz,life's getting rather monotonous.Tomorrow having exams.What a bother.Its like nothing ever exciting happens.Dad just came back from Indonesia.He's in 1 piece.Haha...

Sigh,wonder if I'll ever have fun again.Sometimes,I hope for something that seems hard to achieve.Well,no harm wishing for something if 1 wish has already came true.Weekends fly by rather fast.Can't seem to get it to go slowly.Feeling bored.Its like I've been blogging almost everyday.Thats how bored I am.

Well,don't feel like saying anything else.Guess that'll be all.Gonna go watch Smallville.Good nightz!

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Hello peeps.its almost 6.45 pm now,and I just came back from 1U! Fun Fun Fun! Went out with Lutfi and Elvin. Haha.We had a great time catching up. Well,the funny thing was,there were setbacks. But it turned out well after all.

We queued up for half an hour at GSC just to watch "Over the Hedge,"and guess what?They only had front row seats. Stupid GSC! Haha. Decided to go to TGV instead. And guess what?If we wanted to watch "Over the Hedge,"we had to wait until 5!! So decided to watch Poseidon. Some more no student rates on Sat and Sun! Well,the show was worth it.

Though it was sad to see them die 1 by 1,but it actually was nice.Haha,I sound like a sadist.Not to mention it was almost a full hall. Haha,and we came in a lil late. But it was cool. Hehe,transport was free!!Thanks to my buddy.Hahaha.Next time must go out with you more often,get you to drive me around.Hmm...now for my rating.

I give the show Poseidon,hmm,lets see,7 out of 10.It was cool.Not a must see,but its nice to watch all the same.I guess that'll be all.Haha.Hmm...Just received some disturbing news.Pissed off now.Think I better end this blog before I talk nonsense here.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Lookie at what I found...Its a thought to ponder.Sometimes,we take relationships for granted.We do not place trust as our main basis.Easier said than done though.Its something short,simple and sweet,but its a profound truth that most of us don't realize.If you're having problems,you might want to evaluate your relationship and see whether you have the right foundation for whatever relationship it is.Enjoy!!

Hold my hand . . .

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, "Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand." "What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father..

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. "If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go." In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Ever felt confused?Its like you don't know what to do?Or felt unloved?Its like,you have a loving family,great friends and all,people who care about you,and a Heavenly Father who loves you.But then,there are times,when I feel so distant.Its like everyone seems to "ignore" u,if you can use that word.Maybe its cause I think too much?

I have a friend,who's so terribly sarcastic and critisizing.He keeps telling me,I'm too emo.I think too much.I used to take it as a joke,tell him off.But maybe its true?Maybe I do think too much?Negative thoughts?Run through my head all the time.I must really find a solution to block all this nonsense that goes through my head.

Maybe thats why I'm so moody at times,depressed.Can't seem to shake it off.Whats worse,I can't sleep sometimes until early in the morning,just because I think too much.So many "What if's?" and "If this happened,what would I do?".I tend to plan far ahead.Before I do something,and what are the consequences.Maybe this is something good,but yet,maybe I think too much.

I've been told over and over again,"Chill la,don't take it so seriously" and "Don't worry la,stop taking it seriously." This seems to cure me for awhile,it never does help in the span of a long term.Sometimes,I feel like crap and there's nothing I can do.

And last week,Chris just spoke on the topic of "Not worrying for tomorrow".I just can't seem to keep that mentality for long.And all this nonsense I keep in,nobody knows.It just accumulates,and 1 day,when someone crosses path with me,Boom!!,I blow.Causing me to lash out,as thats my only outlet.Then I look back,and regret what I've done.Cause I never meant to offend or hurt anyone.Its just that,I keep everything inside.Depression,anxiety,worries and my failures.

I'm so thankful for people that stood by me all the time,giving me advice.People like Dines,and Jeff.I just met them recently,and its as if we know each other for such a long time.Jeff,even more amazingly,is in a diff course,but I trust him so much already,its like,I've known him for years.Some problems are just never meant to be told to anyone.Thats why,I don't trust anyone to help me.Its cause I can't even tell them what it is.

But maybe this problems are caused by myself.Maybe my thinking is what caused all this mess.Sigh...I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy life the way I should.Even smiles are fake.Laughter is conjured.Just to cover up,what nonsense I'm going through.Its like I lead a life,not of my own.An "actor",acting out a life thats not mine.Wearing a mask,a mask of joyfulness,happiness,and smile,that surely conceals,my innermost feelings,my hurts,my pains,my agony,and yet,I conceal them,long enough,before it finally surfaces,caged up like a lion,and then set free,devouring everything in its path,held in for too long.

Probably due to the fact of my past and the experiences that I went through,I'm losing my identity.I do not know who I am.Recovering from the trauma of the past,that continually haunts me.Wondering,if I'll ever recognize myself again,after going through all this,only to come out victorious,but lose myself.Only time will tell,whether I can truly recover from this mess inside.

Crushed and burdened by thoughts far too deep for myself,by worries,that might not even be true,and most of all,striving,to find the true "me" and whats left of me.But I know,that He has a plan for each and everyone of us.What I may be experiencing now,could very well be a test.But,sometimes,running the race seems so hard.The test seems impossible to pass,the finishing line,miles away,the prize,too high to obtain.But I'm thankful,"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

Whatever this is,I know for sure,I'll strive to solving this endless mess that keeps on coming from nowhere,knowing in the end,1 day,I'll truly be able to end this "play" and to finally take out this mask that I now wear,and to experience life to the fullest,the way He planned for me to live,to live for whats truly mine,to achieve my goals and dreams in life,and finally,to love from the inside.

Signing out,
-Matt-

PS:Ben Yi,you better shut up if you're reading this.Don't you dare tell me its too emo.Its my blog,so I get to write what I feel. =P

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Just thought of blogging suddenly...Ever had 1 of those days where things don't seem to go right?Well,my day started off pretty much like that.1st thing in the morning,got scolding from my dad.And well,something else went wrong too.The worst thing that could happen is when your day starts off bad.

But well,I got more reasons to be thankful than to be sorry.Looking at the positive side of things does help a lil.But sometimes,when you're in trouble and stuff,and your day feels like crap,finding for that 1 positive point would seem impossible.But well,everyday is a good day,its just a matter of how you look at it.Like my favourite quote says,"Your attitude determine's your altitude." =P

Well,we had a good game of football today,since its the only positive side of what I could find today.Our Seniors SUCK in football,except for maybe Henry.Haha...Ask them to play the whole field also they complain.Lazy pigs. =P However,overall I think we won 10-5 or something.Haha...

Just found out that next week we're having 2 exams.Bother! Accounts and English. Sigh...Looks like I'll have to study.Darn...Other than that...Youth Alive Conference is coming!! Just registered...Hehe....Yea man...Church camp also coming!! Haha...Got a wonderful speaker!! Ps Chris Long!! Haha...This year's church camp is gonna be awesome!!

Oh well...Guess thats all for now.I feel so much better after blogging. Hehe...Peace out!

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Good day peeps! Just thought I dropped by to blog a lil before I have my nap.Hehe.Had our 1st phase test today for Business Maths.Guess what?It was a piece of cake.Haha.Thank God. =) Studied as though expecting a very hard test.Suddenly come out,haha,what a joke.Some more can go Centrepoint before the exam,cause I needed to get something important.

Its a relieve.Maybe its just cause its our 1st phase test.Still not yet reach the hard part yet.Hmm...Now got Accounts and Econs coming up in the next 2 weeks.Expecting Econs to be hard though.Sigh...So much theories and the different graphs to remember.But well,college is still fun.Haha.My stress level has been relatively low.College isn't that stressful,yet.Hopefully,never.Haha.

Anywayz,I wanna take this opportunity to say sorry to some of my course mates.Been terribly moody nowadays.Mood swings?Haha.Who knows.You guys make college so fun anywayz.Glad I've met you guys.Especially people like Dines.24/7 talking nonsense and cursing 1.Haha.Noise makers.But you guys are the best.

And yes! The biggest attraction about KBU! We have our own football field!!! To all you guys who are crazy about football and your college doesn't have 1,too bad. =P Haha.Therefore,my conclusion,come to KBU la.Duh! Ok,I'm starting to crap already. Haha. Guess that'll be all. Time for my nap! =) Have a good week,to whoever is reading this.If anyone does read,Lolz.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...

Good day peeps.I've finally decided to create my 3rd bloggie account.Yay!Aihz,actually,didn't want to,bcoz all my posts are in friendster.Well,Guess I'll be using this more permanently.This seems to be more better in 1 sense.However,I'll be using the friendster blog to update if I do any posts here,as most of you guys are in friendster.Lets see if I can transfer all my posts here.Haha.This is what happens when you're too bored on a holiday.That will be all.Cheerz.

Signing out,
-Matt-

May your light shine...
in my darkness...