Friday, October 27, 2006
The reason I always am online,is cause I'm waiting for the messenger alert to tell me you're online. --------------------------------------------------------- On another note,I would like to know what the heck is going on?This post might be irrelevant to most of my readers,but its directed to someone I thought I knew,someone who doesn't give up easily.Someone who promised me to persevere,and fight to the very end.Someone who I thought would never give up on everything she stood for. Even if you're ignoring me,at least be courteous enough to give me a friggin reply.I was even nice enough to tell you I wouldn't give up on you,cause I know I won't.But tell me this,is replying a sms so hard?Just tell me,whether its a yes,or a no.Do you know all the hard work and effort I put in to organize last minute meetings,and this is how you treat it? Don't even wanna friggin reply me?Even if you don't wanna ever talk to me,do me this favour and just reply me your answer.Then,you're not obligated to even bother about me,though like I've told you so many countless times,I've always been,and will always be here whenever you need me. Do you even know how worried I get?You at least owe me an answer.What the heck...I don't have any right to be angry at you though.I know you're hurting and all,and you're in the worst possible mood now,but you at least should reply to let me know whether its a yes,or a no.Damn it.I feel so bad now... -Matt- PS: Crap.This has turned into an emo post! Oh My Gosh!!!
The reason I always write you testi's,is cause I want the whole world to know how much I love you.
The reason I always stroke your hair,is cause I just love the way your hair runs through my fingers.
The reason I always blush when you're around,is cause I've lost my words,and whatever I've planned to say to you when you came into my view.
The reason I have mood swings and get all depressed,is cause I realized how badly I've missed you,and there's nothing more I rather see right then,than you.
The reason I always get you gifts,is to make you smile,and just enjoy the surprise look you have on your face thats so priceless.
The reason I SMS you everyday,is to let you know,that I still miss you and love you,even when everyone else seems to have stopped.
The reason I stare at you everytime we meet,is cause I realized that nothing else matters anymore when the most beautiful person enters the room.
The reason I tease you,is just to see how cute you look when you're 'angry' or when you sulk.
The reason I tell you that you're beautiful,is cause I mean it,and you're just the most beautiful person to me.So stop denying it,even if you think its not true.Cause I mean it!
The reason I tell you "I miss you" is cause you have no idea how badly I'm suffering,and I really wanna spend every second of my life with you.
The reason I tell you "I love you" is cause you've owned the key to my heart,that special podium in my heart,that tells me,I'll always love you,as long as you love me.
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Its been another routine-ish day.Went to college just to waste my time away.Did nothing but sit in class and talked away.Watched presentations.Sigh...What a day.Still got quite a lot of stuff to do,like preparing songs and all.Oh my gosh!Sigh...What a day.
Hmm,well,read a bulletin post on friendster that day,a sort of online survey,and I was touched that I was actually remembered. "6 people you can tell almost anything," and my name was listed.In a way,though we hardly talk,only met once,and only chat online,but at least there is someone out there who actually appreciates me.I hope you're reading this!
And everything kinda changed a lil yesterday after my recent post.Well,at least things are much better now,I hope.However,knowing me,goodness knows how long I'll be able to stay like this.There really is no telling.Mood swings can be a hassle,but then again,its part of me,no matter how hard I try to change myself.
Glad we're communicating again.Its been awhile.I somehow felt much better,and was extremely touched that you actually woke up to 'teman' me when I woke up at 5+.Much thanks.Hopefully we'll build on this and maybe things will be back to normal.
But yeah,I kinda miss those old times.Though everything else is different,but I hope that nothing changes.I know I can depend on someone else,but she can't hold up everything.She can't carry all the burdens.She can only do so much.I love her to bits,but then,I'll always have time for you.Always...