Sunday, October 15, 2006
Confounded.I'm lost for words.Isn't the best opportunities in life always wasted just by the "sitback and watch" mentality?It doesn't work,does it?Opportunities come and go.If its not grabbed by the neck,regrets is all your pockets will be filled with,not to mention that stabbing thought in the mind,"What if I had done this?" I Write Sins Not Tragedies by Panic! At The Disco Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor, and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words: "What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter. "And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore." I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of... Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. Again... I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. Again... -Matt-
Its just plain stupidity,and though I've tried changing my mentality,I have,but its just that,golden opportunities not taken kills all my effort I've put in.I should just stab myself for being so dumb.Can't say I didn't try though.Things just don't work out the way it should friggin be.I've learned that life is a real *****.
I'm sick and tired of all this shit.I'm tired of breaking down into tears everytime this kinda shit happens.I'm tired of thinking about expectations and the friggin disappointments.I guess I always had this stupid thought that,things will somehow piece itself together to form that complete jigsaw puzzle that I've wanted to make.
Nothing's worse than a big expectation been extinguished,followed by an even bigger disappointment that really just pisses me off.Nothing seems to go my way now.What did I do to deserve such shit?I need a hug.I'm becoming emo again,and I can't let that happen.I just can't.Not after I've had that few days of change.
Discouraged.Ever notice how a pile of shit comes together with another?My dad had to choose to lecture me just when all this shit happened.Wow,what a friggin coincidence!What utter nonsense!Just really pissed off.I was in such a good mood today,but it all just disintegrated within moments.So pissed!
Go on!Rant your nonsense to me.Talking about forgiveness,I actually felt a release inside when I actually forgave a few certain party's who had annoyed the crap out of me.Now that I'm so annoyed,I don't feel like in a forgiving mood now if any dumb ass were to come to me and piss me off right now.
Hate all these roller coasters going round and round,as I sit helplessly,ravaged by its stabbing pain that its leaving in me.Circumstances can seriously piss off.Go die go die! I hate you! Ignorance is bliss.I wished I could have the luxury of having ignorance.It'll be so much more nicer.Stab stab stab!
Friggin tired.Tired physically,mentally,emotionally.I need a boost.Or I'll seriously breakdown for good.Just when I needed that extra boost,I got disappointed.Now,I gotta face another stupid week on my own.Life's treating me like shit.Circumstances suck so bad.And I'm a sucker dying for attention.