Friday, October 06, 2006
Sometimes,I often pose myself this question,is doing the right thing worth it?Is it worth the humiliation?Is it worth the jeers and scorns?Is it worth the amount of $#!+ you get back?Sometimes,doing what's right may mean a certain embarassment,being laughed at,or even being looked down upon.
Well,I for one am glad I did something right today.Though it has nothing to do with the above statement,but sacrificing does count.Though I so much wanted to keep it for my own,as I had my own agenda and plans,but seeing the situation,I just couldn't help,but think,there's no better time to change than now.
It hurts,and if it means a delay in my plans,then I guess it'll have to be like that.But I'm proud of myself,cause I did the right thing.Standing up for your own stands and convictions,can be a real challenge.I've seen that especially in my life,and too many times,I've succumbed to the peer pressure that mounts up against me.
You think being the way you are means you're cool?Thats what you think,but for me,being myself is the best,even if its not cool to you.Know why?Cause as long as I know I don't change to fit in,or just to look cool,like the rest of you friggin pretenders and hypocrites do,I'll stay original.There's no other Matt in this world.So why bother changing?
Yes,I may dislike certain parts about myself,but who am I to argue that I shouldn't be like this,or I should be like that?I'm who I am today cause I was created that way.If a girl were to come to me right this instant,and tell me that she loves me for me,and not because I try to be someone else,I'll be the happiest guy in the world.
I ain't gonna wear a stupid mask just to fit in,or look cool.I'll just be myself.Don't change me.Don't act like you friggin know me,cause you don't.If I'm meant to be secluded from your so called group of peers,and to be chucked aside,by all means.If you can't accept me for who I am,then I don't care,cause your opinions or 'friendship',if you can call it that way,doesn't matter.
I appreciate best friends,cause they accept me for who I am.I appreciate everyone close to me,cause no matter what,I'm still loved,even if I don't feel it that much.To all you wanna-be's,instead of earning my respect by changing to be cool,you've totally lost it.You've changed your identity,so to speak.
If friendship was all about being cool,and relationships all about looks,then I can tell you,there isn't anything that will last.Excuse me,but even being rich means you're surrounded by friends?I should say not.You're probably surrounded by vultures,scavengers ready to eat up whatever extra's you drop.
Still,we all do wear masks,but at least,I don't wear a mask that totally isn't me.Everything I do,is a part of me.If you can't friggin accept me for who I am,then beat it! I don't need peeps like you.As long as I have my own life,and my closest peeps love me,I don't need you.Snap out of it!Wake up!This is reality!My respect is earned by peeps who can be themselves,and stand up for themselves.
Dare to be different!Dare to be yourself!
-Matt-