Friday, October 13, 2006
Suddenly,the world looks different alltogether.What's this?Maybe it ain't the same anymore.Change my friggin perspective on life,and a whole load of crap.Looking at things from a different angle,and I somehow feel lighter,and there ain't no burdens anymore.Its like,now,all I need to do,is deal with the basic problem I've been having.
Bulldozing my way through life,I feel as if I can take on anything.Weakening my grasp,and limiting it to just holding on so a single thread.Just to make sure I've got control on everything.Hanging by a thread,it feels like I was gasping for air all the time.Now,all I feel is,something else different.
Probably changing my point of view,and how it all should be,I've gained more strength to push over any friggin obstacle in my way,and just solve it easily.Never would I in my wildest dreams,have thought I'd become like this.Instead of being the same ole' sappy emo freak that I once was,I feel as light as a feather.
Life is hard,but changes can be for the better.My friend was right. "Life is short,you gotta learn to have fun,or you'll regret later on." Having said all that,it just ain't gonna be the same anymore.Wondering what the word 'fun' would mean to me,considering the fact,that I'm carrying so many heavy responsibilities,plus the burdens of studies.
However,looking at things differently definitely has helped lighten the load so much.I'll never be the same again.Thank God He "slapped" me and woke me up.I even thought that it was gonna be a hard decision to make,considering it would mean changing my whole lifestyle,but I guess I can't say I regret making such a contrast change.Just hoping this doesn't bring a change to anything major in life.
Now the only problem would be to keep this up,or the possibility of reverting back to the old miserable sappy self might just occur.Convincing myself was the hardest thing,and now,hanging on and continueing this 'routine' check-up would be the challenge.Whatever man,I'm ready to face it.
-Matt-