Sunday, September 10, 2006
Frame a portrait of myself and destroy it.Burn! Burn! I'm sorry for putting you in that situation.Didn't mean to.I really feel like @#$% for causing you so much trouble.I don't deserve anything.Screwed my day even more.Shoot me and leave me to bleed.Blood gushing out,will probably be left all alone.
Slap me in the face.Punch me in the nose.Hit me wherever you wish.I'm sick and tired of all this @#$%.Just push me down,and leave me there.As if it wasn't bad enough screwing up my own day,I screwed yours too.I'm sorry.Emo freak! Emo freak!A self-assigned label.Beat me up till there's no more life in me.
Yell the @#$% out of me.Left all alone again.Facing up to another friggin week.Might as well give up now and just rot.Shredded into 2,I lay down,with nowhere left to turn to.Nobody cares!Nobody gives a damn!Just leave me to die.I've become a monster.Turned into something I don't want to.A friggin burden.No words can describe the deep sincere apology I have to say to you.All I can say is,I'm sorry.
Tossed and turned like a bundle of clothing inside a washing machine.Shredded and torn like a pound of meat by a pack of ravenous dogs.Pierced and stabbed with daggers and knives,sharp enough to slice through steel as though it was some kinda cake.Butchered and clobbered till I'm sore and bleeding everywhere from its effects.
Smashed and crushed with emo thoughts,like there was no tomorrow.Beaten up,and dragging myself,living without energy to depend on.Branded a jerk,or at least self branded.Screwed up nicely.I messed things up nicely.I'm sorry.Don't know what to say to you.I let 1 careless split second ruin things up nicely.
I've wronged you.I'm guilty.I've put you in a wrong position,and I'm sorry for it.As if being emo wasn't bad enough,I had to do that to you.I'm in such a bad state now.I don't know how to say sorry to you.Damn me!What have I done?I can't believe it! I'm so sorry.I'm near to tears now.I've screwed up my whole day.
Self-patronize!
-Matt-