Friday, September 29, 2006
So I'm just a pillow to soften your landing,then you throw me away?Piss off!Seriously,get a life.I don't care about you anymore.Just walk away.Turn your back on me.You guys are the reason why my life in college is such a bore.You're the reason why I don't believe in friends.If you ain't no best friend of mine,then piss off.Friends can't be relied on.Best friends are the only peeps worth living for. I'm tired of holding it all back in.You think cursing the whole day is cool?Let me tell you something.I'm disgusted with you peeps.Don't you friggin rope me in.I don't wanna be a part of you even if you paid me.Cursing are for wimps who have such a low friggin self-esteem.So you curse to look cool,but to me,you're just a bunch of losers. Left here without anyone to talk to.Viciously handicapped by this feelings that overwhelm and crush me.Been here,done that.Same old,same old.It all seems so familiar.Its like getting hit in the hand,and there's no friggin painkiller to sooth the pain.Just shoot me down.Hate me.Doesn't really matter anymore. -Matt-
Ready to be BBQ-ed.
BBQ-ing the food.
Had lunch at 1U after college at this Korean BBQ place.Pretty good.Went for a movie with Linda right after college,after lunch.Watched Miami Vice,and to be honest,it was pure disappointment.18SG,violent at certain parts,but still,nothing to shout about really.Thanks Linda for the lunch.You're the best.
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Loneliness creeps up and bites me in the neck.Its venom spreads through my body,running through my veins,and spreads its deadly effect on me.The unbearable pain and agony,the excruciating pain grips deep in,and refuses to let go of its deadly grip on me.Its fangs sinked deep down,oozing with deadly poison,killing me slowly,bit by bit.
I so hate lonely nights.It kills me so deep inside.Trapped in loneliness,like a rat,trapped in a mousetrap.The walls are closing in,I feel so small.Crushed,pushed into a corner,surrounded by empty rooms,only filled with echos,as I try to navigate my way out of it.Where's everyone?I don't wanna be alone.Am I too dependant on other peeps?
I don't care.To be honest,for the 1st time,I'm actually gonna say I hate you peeps.You guys sure are the best pretenders in the world.What's the use of having so many peeps on my friends list when all you guys is just shut yourself.Except for the few I constantly talk with,you pretenders never even bother to say hi.
This goes out to particularly you @#%#@$ in my college! I hate you pretenders!Stop pretending to be my friends,and ditch me when you don't need me.Stupidity rules your brains.I don't mind if you come to me,and ask for help,or advice,but when you're fine,I'm pushed aside?Who the heck do you think you are?
