Thursday, September 07, 2006



Conform,or be Ostracized!

Home by Michael Buble

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I'm fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
That this is not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

Just don't get how life runs around on its own.Perplexed,confused.Its so easy to be on the top of the world at 1 moment,and the next,you're so low in the dumps,you've forgotten what it is to experience joy.Still trying to win the war over my emo state.Just a matter of time I believe.

Slowly progressing day by day.I wished you knew,how much I needed you to be there for me when I'm in the low's.I just don't wanna put all that expectations on you.I'm scared you'll feel pressured,and I'll be a burden to you,and thats something I never want to happen.

I never want you to feel pressured,and thats why I keep it to myself.Your company is missed every single second of everyday,but you have other obligations and other responsibilities,and I don't wanna be in the way of you living your life.It'll just be too selfish of me.

Climbing up this mountain,and then falling down again halfway.I wished you knew,but I guess,I wanted you to take the initiative to find out whats wrong.Still,I don't wanna be a hindrance to you.I wished I could face this alone,but I can't,because I'm lacking companionship and friendship.

If only someone would care,if only someone would call,if only someone would take the time to talk,if only someone can be there when I need them.Am I becoming too dependant on peeps?Maybe I am,but what the heck's wrong with that?I'll die without any friends.

I'm dying in college.There's no one to connect with.Surrounded by temptation,its either to conform,or to be ostracized.What the heck's wrong with this?The situation is so bad,that if I don't conform,I'm all alone.Just gotta work through another 8 months of loneliness.,hopefully not another 4 years.

Facing the world all alone,I feel like *beep*.I can't take it.I don't wanna breakdown.Just give me the strength to carry on.I need you so bad.I really do.I'm not afraid to say I miss you.I'm not afraid to say that I need you.I just can't do it alone.The world looks at me with those cruel eyes,and laugh and scorns at me.

Its so tough living the life that I live.Just gotta persevere and push on,and I hope,you'll always be by my side as we both go through life's perilious journey.I'll be there to hold your hand,and I hope,you'll be there to hold mine.I just need your support more than ever.Need to know that you'll always be there for me.

Argh,I'm being emo!What the heck????Pathetic!

To conform or be ostracized.I need you to walk me through life.Help me,or I'll slowly fade away.

-Matt-

Matttoophat blogged at 6:14 PM

May your light shine...
in my darkness...


About Me

The name's Matt
Born on 11th May 1988
Aged 19 this year
Loves hanging out with friends,sports,music
Currently studying at KBU
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