Tuesday, September 12, 2006
3 quarter of the year has passed.As I sat down and pondered upon what I've been through,it truly has been a radical year of happenings.I just recap sometimes of what I've been through.I'm still in amazement at what has happened so far.You may say its only been 9 months,but I've experienced so much in this 9 months thats enough to last me a lifetime. Barney - Guitarist! Phoebe - Bassist! Eu Jin - Drummer! Andrew - Pianist! Eu Wyn - Percussionist! L-R: Claudia,Carmen,Felicia. My 3 additional Backup's! -Matt-
I've been through the highest and the lowest point in my life.Its been pretty crazy.I've been in seventh heaven,and went through hell.Experienced so much more in 1 year than I have in my last 17 years of my life.Just can't wait to wipe out all those moments of hell I've been through.A past so painful,I don't wanna recall.
I'm just looking forward without ever glancing back.The scars remain,and it'll take a long time to heal.I've learned so many lessons though.I've learned what it means to love,and to be loved.I've learned what it means to be hurt so bad,life's not worth living anymore.I've learned how to cry my eyes out.
I've learned the true meaning of friendship.I've learned the pain of losing a best friend,and never regaining it back.Most of all,I've learned how to come out stronger.I've learned more about myself than anything else.When I fall,I fall down hard,but I know,that He's always there for me,though He may seem distant from me at times.
Maybe its cause I turned 18 this year.I thought I'll just be given more responsibilities and to some extent,more freedom.Instead,I got more than that.I've had the most life changing year I could ask for,and its not over yet.If my life were to be plotted down on a graph,you'll see it moving up and down,up and down.Literally like a yo-yo.
Just wanna thank God that things are looking up for me now,and there's even the added ingredient of more stress,exams and assignments,but I've got 2 things to lean on.I've got my Daddy up there,and also,my best friend in the whole wide world to lean on.I still kinda wished I had never hurt a really really good friend I had before this,and thats 1 of my biggest regret in life.
Friendship seems to mean a whole lot to me this year.This year,more than ever,I've learned that I can't survive without my best friends.Let me put it this way,from the way my view has changed about the word 'friendship'.Friends are there to temporarily fill the emptiness and the loneliness,but they can never feel the big gap,the void,the hole inside,which only best friends can accomplish.
I've learned to cherish my best friends more.We'll never know what we have till we've lost it,and I now know what it means to lose a best friend.Friendship means more to me now than just a plain word we use in our daily lives.The power of friendship can never be denied.I believe no one can live alone.
Moving on to another topic.1 of the greatest force on the planet,love.Hope,love and peace will be the only elements that last,and among the 3,love is the greatest.This word has brought on a dramatic change in my life.I've learned to give,sacrifice,and offer a part of me,to learn and know more about another person.
I've learned to trust,and to give unselfishly.I've given away a part of me,and I've never regretted it.Things can only get better.The more you sacrifice and give away,the more you'll learn about the other person.A principle,that contains the element of risk-taking,but I believe,is essential.
I've learned what it means to be in charge,to be a leader,to have responsibilities,to organize,and ultimately,to lead.There's just so much more to leadership than just leading,commanding,organizing,and delegating.I've learned,that as a leader,the feelings of those below you,count and leading is not about a person being in the limelight,but,a leader is 1,who integrates with the peeps below,and working together for the better of the team.
I've learned,never to underestimate what He has placed into your hands to manage.I've learned never to compare with others more superior than you,cause I know,that 1 day,we'll reach that kinda status.I'm proud of my youth group to say the least.You guys really are the best.I've learned so much from you peeps,and will continue learning.
I've learned to a certain degree,to cope with stress and all the nonsense that comes with it.College life has its share of exams and assignments,and how I hate them,but I've learned what it means to be stressed out and all.So far,I guess I'm doing fine.Things will always turn out alrite in the end,even if its sometimes last minute work.
Its been a life changing year indeed.I've got 3 more months to go.3 more months of more happenings I'm sure,but more convinced than ever,my future looks bright.Never looking back now!Though I've had my regrets,I can only correct them to a certain extent.Not gonna allow it to hold me back.I really hope,I'll be able to correct this mess that I've made.
Till then,cheers to a remaining good year!
PS: Here are some of the H.Y.P.E. pics of the Trailblazers! Thanks to Kel Li! Enjoy!
Lead Singer! Tada...
Sharmein - Backup Singer!
