Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Been through 2 days of pure suffering and torture.Still can't really forgive myself for what I did,but after seeing how things are,I know that we'll never be the same again.Its just hard,cause I don't hurt peeps.I just can't live with myself.When we were close,your company was much appreciated,and attention much loved,but I guess,it'll never be that way again.
After all,you want it that way.Been haunted by my guilt and my tendency to worry,sucks.Especially the 1st night,where the pain and agony was simply tremendous.But after making my decision,I don't regret.There ain't no room for regrets.Life's just too short for regrets.Just the consequences that are killing me.
My baby's been tremendous.You've helped me out,and you've been there for me,all the time.You've been great.Lets hope we can keep this up.Love you so much.If we keep this up,I'll be able to forget my guilt soon,hopefully.Still think I'll regret?Never!Not with you by my side.I'm still sorry for what I did though.Could never have seen this coming.
Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day,not to mention tonight as well.Got homework to do,plus assignments,responsibilities to see out,and peeps to call and confirm stuff and all.I hope you'll be able to go out tomorrow sweetie.
Last practise,and then,its H.Y.P.E. Concert 06!Gonna be a blast!Everyone's all hyped up for the concert,and so far,so good.Just hope all my buddy's who I've invited will be able to make it.Support peeps,support!Thats all I'm asking for.Even if you don't wanna hear me sing(Its not that my voice sucks or anything),at least go there to support me!
Today's the eve for Independance Day.Just heard that Sam's going to Ikano to countdown with Shuenz.How romantic!Sad.I wanna go out to countdown with you also can't.Guess I'll call you at 12?Hahaha...Well,guess there's nothing much to talk about.Will blog again later if I have to.
Learning to let go of my guilt.Help me baby!Need you to hold my hand and bring me through this.Need you so bad now!Miss you badly.
-Matt-