Saturday, July 29, 2006
Opening my eyes,I found myself on the floor,stretching myself,I got up to my feet.For some reason,my knees were shaky,and a shot of nervousness sent a shockwave through my entire being.I got up,regained my sense of positioning,and tried to recall what had happened.
It was then that I realized,that I had entered your world without realizing it.It looked rather red here and there.Your whole world was in cracks,as if a massive earthquake had taken place.As I journeyed onwards,I was careful of my every step,that I won't cause another massive earthquake.It was hard,but I had to be very careful.
Slowly,I surveyed the remains of your world around me.It seemed destined to self-destruct at any given moment.It hurt me as well,as I understood what was really going on.Your world was in shambles,broken and torn.Yet,I could still see,that yes,there was still life in the midst of all these brokenness.
As I searched for answers,to why it was in such a mess,I came to the centre of it all,the heart.Pumping blood as if there was no tomorrow,it was still in good shape.As I walked around it,to get a closer view,I noticed a gleaming edge,that caught my eye,from 1 side of your heart.
To my horror,as I took a closer look,I saw a dagger pierced right through in the middle.Yet,I sensed that I should have anticipated this coming,but never in my wildest dreams,could I have imagined the condition of your heart.I just sat there,and tears streamed down my face.How could it be possible?Is it salvagable?
As time went by,I noticed,that the dagger was pushed by a constant movement,minor earthquakes if I might add.It just kept going deeper,and deeper.I tried with all my might,to pull it out,but I realized,it was in vain,as I tried but I couldn't seem to pull it out.I felt helpless,searching my mind,for a solution.
In the end,I gave up,knowing,I couldn't pull it out,but only you can.However,I noticed,that wherever I stepped on,out of care,it healed the cracks here and there.I could be of assistance after all.However,I noticed,that as I got deeper and deeper,I could no longer heal those cracks,but instead,I could be making it worse.Careful as to where I stepped on,I withdrew,and did what I can,never daring to enter further in.
I knew I could never take out that heart piercing pain,but all I know is,that I'll help out wherever I can,even if I can't pull out the dagger that was stuck.I know,that if given the chance,I could,but never in my wildest dreams,have I expected to be given that chance,and opportunity,to pull it out with every single ounce of strength in me,cause I know,its futile to even think that far.
What I can do now,I'll do it,no matter what the cause.Too small to take effect,but I wanna help in whatever way I can,even if I can't cure the source of it all.I now know,that inside a world of hurts,brokenness,the best thing I can do,is to be there.Hopefully,your world will cure itself 1 day.
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Been a tiring day.Woke up at 5.30am.Crazy!Everytime I wake up,I can't go back to sleep.Went for futsal competition,lost because of some lousy refereeing,and all the decisions seemed to be going to the other team.Sprained my thumb just cause someone didn't know hot to kick the ball.
Was spectating the match before us,and some stupid guy shot the ball,and it had to hit my thumb.Now its sprained. =( But well,stuff happens.Can't be helped.There was lots of curse words being shouted cause my whole team wasn't happy with the stupid referee.I took it calmly and rather collected.
Sigh,sad.Screwed the whole game just cause the referee wasn't up to standard,but I won't badmouth him.People make mistakes.Hmm,have to go out for lunch,go for worship practise,and then go for youth cell.Playing piano for tomorrow,and playing guitar for the youth cell,and my finger's sprained.Could it get any worse?Haiz...Lets hope lunch will be great.
Having buffet.Celebrating daddy's belated birthday at Eastin Hotel! Someone gave us free tickets for buffet. Yay!! Bleah,finger still hurts.What a day,what a day! Though someone made my day. And yes,Justina,thanks for calling me kor kor.I feel so much 'younger' now.Haha,but thanks for making my day.You're a doll! =)
Lets hope tonight's cell will be awesome.Not to mention I won't be going to Genting's for the whole trip,though we might be going just for a 1 day trip to the theme park! =( Have a good weekend everyone.Peace out!
-Matt-