Sunday, July 02, 2006
As I bump into the wall before me once again,I couldn't help,but sit down and just cry.I feel the abandoness and loneliness thats building inside of me.I felt like I've lost all my best friends.What are best friends?I don't know.Those best friends I supposedly had,disappeared the minute I hit this wall.I can't go through,and help was nowhere to be found.
I couldn't find the way out,so the only way was to break down the wall.Its taking me a huge amount of time,as I slowly took my time.I cried in frustration and tiredness,as I did it on my own.Friends will always be friends,no matter what.Best friends are those who'll be there no matter what,when,or why.I want someone who's always there.
I want someone who will be there to catch me when I fall.Someone who'll be there when I'm down and helpless,who'll defend me when I've been struck down and unable to get up.Someone who'll be there,to tell me,that everything's gonna be alright.Someone who I can call or sms when I need encouragement.Someone who'll tell me,I'm the best ever friend I can be.
Someone who'll never turn their back on me.Someone who'll take the trouble to keep in touch even when we're far apart.Someone who'll be able to keep secrets and never spill it all out.Someone who's the best listener in the world.Someone who'll be here when I'm down,but who'll rejoice with me when I'm happy.Someone who'll truly sincerely give without expecting anything in return.Someone who'll be willing to take and take,without argueing about who gives and takes.
A best friend,so close,that I'll be able to entrust my life into his/her hands if ever I need to.Sounds like requirements?Nah,just what I think a 'perfect' best friend should be.Then again,which of us is perfect?The perfect feature for my best friend?A Good Listener.Thats the best thing a friend can offer.A best friend,so understanding,caring and close,that it'll erase all loneliness,and painful memories.
As I carry on digging my way through the wall that now blocks my journey through life.As I continue on,I'll make do with whoever I have...1 best friend ain't enough,but I'll definitely cherish all my best friends...or at least future best friends,as I continue on my journey,in hopes of making more best friends,to help me carry through...
Someone once messaged me this short but meaningful sms. "There's a story behind every friendship.Each friend we make is a start of each story.Our story had a wonderful beginning.Hope this story,never has an ending." It was to touching.It just reached down deep down into me,and tugged at my soul.It made me realize,that friends are important.Best friends,are even more important,cause they're so rare,they're hard to find anywhere.
Done by -Matt-
Just blurting out all my thoughts.It seems loneliness has taken over.All I long for,is a friend who cares,a friend who's there,a friend who's never too far away to call,a friend,that I can call, "My best friend". Its not that I already don't have 1,but I just need more.Someone who understands and who'll land a listening ear.
Anyway,enough stuff.Its the weekends,and very soon before exam week begins and the whole week starts all over again.Just thought I put in some of this beautiful love quotes from movies that Barney sent to me.Thanks Barney boy.Real nice of ya!
1. "Evelyn, loving you kept me alive. I should have died over there. When I was in that water, I made a deal with God. I told him I was sorry. I was a fool for leavin' you and I told him I would never ask for anything again if I could just see you. And you know what? It was worth it. You kept me alive Evelyn, you brought me home. So I'm gonna stand by my end of the deal, I'm gonna walk away. And won't ask you for anything." [Pearl Harbour]
2. "I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all." [10 things I hate about You]
3. "Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. Go for it." [10 things I hate about You]
4. "If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn. People die. But real love lives forever." [The Crow]
5. "Take love, multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of forever... and you still have only a glimpse of how I feel for you." [Meet Joe Black]
6. "Don't forget. I'm just a girl standing in front of a boy... asking him to love her." [NottingHill]
7. "I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One." [City of Angels]
8. "I take the good with the bad. I can't love people in slices." [Unknown Movie =P]
9. "You will never know love unless you surrender to it." "I may not be a smart man, but I know what love is." [Forrest Gump]
10. "The only wrong thing would be to deny what your heart truly feels." [The Mask of Zorro]
Just some stuff to ponder about.Its amazing how love can be described with such beautiful phrases.Just some food for thought as we go through everyday life without stopping,to cherish the one's that we love.Well,got nothing else to say.Oh yeah,and to dear Linda,thanks for your company at lunch today.It somewhat helped me alot.Thats about it.
Till we meet again,somewhere during the week.Have a good week peeps.Peace out!
Signing out,
-Matt-