Sunday, July 09, 2006
9.25pm,8th July 2006... Well,I was thrilled to say the least.Thanks daddy.Well,there's econs assignment to do tonight.Plus,drama day is coming up pretty soon.Its this Wed!! Oh crap,I'm getting the jitters.I'm freaking out.Scared!The only thing I'm looking forward to,is the finals tomorrow morning and to finish and be done with this semester.Hopefully,I'll be able to catch a movie during my study break,as well as another movie after my finals. Its hectic to say the least,as we near the end of semester.Lets hope I can make it through.God help me as I go through this last days of my semester! -Matt-
As I opened the door,I walked out of the house,with a heavy heart.Amongst a jumble of mixed feelings,loneliness kept creeping in.As I sat alone outside,I just looked at the night sky,and wished for once,I could get out of this web of emotions that kept holding me back.Still,I did not know what to do.At least I know where to go when I feel lonely.Outside my house,just sitting there alone.Spending some time,just thinking.
9th July 2006...
It was a Sunday,and I never thought it would become that bad.As I contemplated all the emotions running through my head,it was clear,I couldn't concentrate on anything.Chris noticed something was horribly wrong.Even Linda wasn't herself.After a rather long 15 minute counselling session with the both of us,he prayed for us.I couldn't handle it,as I broke down in tears.
I've managed to cage up the other part of me,knowing,that I should never have given him room at 1st,to roam around.After he prayed for us,I felt a lil better.I realized that in my current state of mind,I would be tormented and I'll totally screw up whatever I did.So,thankfully,Chris prayed for me.I was so thankful.Gave him a good nice hug after that.Really appreciated it.
Well,overall,it was an okay day.Had bad mood swings throughout,or severe depression,whatever you wanna call it,but then,in the end,my dad did something nice for me that cheered me up a bit.He bought me new Adidas Basketball shoes!New to me anyway.Its really cool!I'll finally be able to play basketball with the proper pair of shoes.