Monday, July 24, 2006
Hi dear peeps and faithful readers of Matt's blog.Just made a decision to quit blogging everyday.Its just too tiresome sometimes,and well,I won't be a regular,but will still blog,occasionally. =) Came to this decision,cause I'm afraid when I get too emo sometimes,I may say stuff that I don't mean to,and offend people.[You know who you are,sorry...=( ] Going through 2 months of recuperating,recovering,and rehabilitation sucked.There was just so much to the process,and the condition of the heart was broken.Well,so much for all that.I'm just glad,cause this is the end of all that pain and suffering and torment.Not to mention those sleepless nights,teary eyes,thoughts of sadness,depression,loneliness,and just that longing.I'm glad,cause its all gone.
Anyway,didn't have the chance to blog yesterday.This would be my 61st post.So fast! Yeah,and that day,I just noticed that I've reached 300 testimonials on my friendster(Congratulations to me...=P)So yeah,I've reached a milestone.Hmm...well,so far,the weekend's been great,though rather tiring.Asides from the movie on Saturday,I was out the whole of yesterday.
Had a great worship service(Worship Explosion rocks!).It was just excellent.Was so much refreshed after that.Yeah,and we all got to jump(Finally...=.=")This is a start of a revolution,I believe,that will sweep throughout HCC! Haha...We'll get everyone to jump,soon.Hmm...but yeah,my leg ached after that,and we straightaway took off for S.A.L.T. concert right after youth.
Hmm...unfortunately,we saved our voices and stamina for the concert,but turned out,all the bands sang their own songs,so we couldn't really jump along and all.Barney was probably the most energetic guy in the whole of the concert.He was constantly jumping,though he didn't know the songs,haha.But meeting up with Sean and all,it was really good.
The journey there was fun!Haha,we all ended up trying to me Malaysian Idol wanna-be's.We went crazy in Sarah's car,singing along to the songs. =P It was fun.Yes,and as usual,I was made the scapegoat to why we were late,cause apparently,I took too long to shower and to do my hair while we were in Sean's place! (I only took 2 minutes on my hair,maybe less!!)
Hmm...the most surprising thing was,the concert wasn't as big as we thought it would be,haha.Yes,but the loud music certainly made it all worth it.My eyes were constantly on the drummers! =) They were really good!! Oh,and Altered Frequency were excellent as well,and we're having them over for our youth concert on the Sept 2!! So cool!
Just came back from college,after finishing my accounts exam!Today's the 1st day of my finals! Crap! Gotta study like mad tonight.Oh,and by the way,sorry Karmen cause I couldn't talk to ya today.Was just about to go into the examination hall,and yeah,obviously we have to off our handphones,so yeah,sorry cause I didn't reply. =)
But anyway,accounts wasn't that bad,except for the theory questions.Hmm...ah,almost forgot.1 of my wishes on my wishlist has came true.So I took it off already.Yesterday was exactly 2 months since a life changing event took place in my life,and yeah,I believe,after that long 2 months that seemed like eternity,and I thought it would never end,might finally have ended.
Right now,I'm clueless still,to why it happened,or why I deserved it,but well,its time to look to the present and the future,and stop clinging on to the past.What I did learn is,that when all hope seems lost,and nothing seems to go right,when you don't see the light in the tunnel,when you're hoping for something that doesn't come your way,reevaluate whether its a possibility.If its not,just give up.No use waiting for something that won't happen.Let go,and let God!
Well,its been 1 heck of a journey.No doubt,I'll never forget it.The most painful and lowest moments in my life,buried,but still there as a constant reminder,to be careful with the choices you make,and to think through it over and over again.I've successfully ridden my camel! =P
Oh,and I wanna thank all those people who's been there for me while I was going through those times of depression.My parents,of course.Chris,Sarah,Linda,Khye-Ren,Ashley.There are just too many to name,but this are the major group of people,that I can remember.Sorry,but I know there are a lot more people I should thank,and to those who've helped me through this,you guys are the best.You know who you are.Of course,the biggest applause goes to My Heavenly Father,who's never let me down,and was always there for me.Thanks Daddy! You're always there when I needed ya,though it may seem you were far away at times. =)
Guess that'll be all peeps.All the best to those of you taking your exams.Happy studying.Cheers.Peace out!Oh,and here you go Kel Li.You wanted a bigger font,haha.
-Matt-
PS: I just feel like saying this to a certain person. ******,you're an idiot for letting go of her.I'm just sorry she wasted her love on you,and you never gave it back.You're a jerk!She still won't let you go.You lucky ass,and you don't appreciate it.JERK!!