Sunday, July 30, 2006
Drama drama drama.Its a Sunday,and who would expect drama to happen?Too many things happened today in church.It was insane.Don't wanna talk about it,don't wanna bother.Just 1 of those days when mood swings hit an innocent guy like me.
I don't care.Nobody does anyway.So like,what do you mean by pretending to care?If the Grammy's were here,you'd probably win best actress!Who do you think you are?You think you know me well?Think again.How on earth did you get the idea that you could go in and out of my life like that,without even giving me a proper reason?
So I'm useless,you can chuck me away just like that?Wow,I'm surprised.More importantly,I'm surprised I held you with such high regard.What the?How can it come from such a person?You think by doing that,its good enough?Well I've got news for ya,there ain't no such thing as doing something just to please me for a moment.
How you've fallen from such a high position,such an important person in my life,to just someone who I hardly know anymore.Its amazing isn't it,how neglection can cause such a downfall.I'll be honest.You were 1 of the few people who has ever earned my trust,my respect,my friendship to the point where I would take a bullet for you,my concern,that I'd always be there and ask you how you were doing.
There's more.You also earned that special podium in my heart,for a short while,but you screwed it up anyway.Not only that,you were 1 of the 3 girls who I actually considered to be 'best friend' material in my entire life.Let me repeat,ENTIRE LIFE! No other girl could easily earn that kinda position so easily within such a short period of time.
But,I guessed it didn't matter to you.You probably never knew how important you were till you screwed it up nicely.You'll probably never ever find out.I guess my opinions don't matter,cause as far as I'm concerned,our friendship meant nothing after a while to you.It hurt me to lose you as friend more than it hurt you,cause after all,I was just a makeshift friend.
After all,you never really allowed me to help you.I told you everything,all my problems,all the nonsense I was going through.You were there,you gave me advice,you lent me your ear,you were even the peacemaker,you were everything I could ask for as a friend,but yet,after all my dark and gloomy skies were gone,I was chucked aside.
Of course I'm grateful,but what the?Friendship?No such thing to you?Fine,so I lied to you.I told you exactly the opposite when you asked me what was wrong and whether it was related to you.But so?After all,if you're too good to be my friend,then I guess I have the right not to tell you when things are wrong and when it has everything to do with you.
I wanna trust you,but I don't know whether I can confide in you again like I used to.You have taken away every reason for me to trust in you at all.There's a part of me that wants to trust you again,to be your best friend again,to be open to you,but well,I don't wanna tell you all the nonsense I'm going through,if I can't be sure that I can still look up to ya as my best friend.
You're gonna have to prove it,that you can reclaim the status of 'best friend' in my heart.I miss talking to you.I miss being opened to you.But,if I'm not gonna know for sure that you'll be my best friend again,then I won't.You won't even let me help you out in your problems.You can still tell me you're not facing any when your face is as long as a papaya.
At least let me carry your burdens just like you did for me.I don't know.I just felt like I've lost a huge part of me.Best friends are irreplacable.You were my shooting star,the 1 that came by only almost like once in a lifetime.You were always there for me,till now.I've never felt so neglected until now.
I miss having you as a best friend.I miss your concern.I miss the times we spent going out.I miss those nights of smses,and phone calls.I miss those times where we'd sit and chat.Most of all,I miss the thought of knowing,I could always talk to you anytime,anywhere.Sadly,all those didn't mean a thing to you.
I wish you the best anyway.You take care of yourself.I'm just sorry our friendship didn't mean anything to you,and I'm chucked away,as if you were bored.I'm just sorry it ended like this.1 thing's for sure,I'll still always be here when you need me.You face too many problems,and you face them alone.But unlike you,I'm here if you ever decide you need someone to talk to.
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On a different note,here are some pics of the buffet lunch we had at Eastin hotel.It was by far the best buffet in my life.There was so much food,we spent 2 and a half hours there.They had Vietnamese,Thailand,Singapore,Phillippines food.They had Sushi,Malaysian food,lamb,satay.
They had a whole table full of cakes and puddings for desserts,plus another table of buns.6 flavours of ice-cream.They had steamboat,fruits,all kinds of stuff.It was crazy.Enjoy drooling over the pics.
Some of the cakes and puddings
Ice-cream(Sweet corn,Yam,Chocolate,Chocolate chip,Mint,Strawberry)
Buns(Cinnamon,Oatmeal,Garlic bread,etc....)
More cakes and puddings
More desserts
Ice-cream with chocolate toppings and syrup.Yes,I had buffet with a sprained thumb.
Ice-cream with coffee.Excellent stuff.
Sushi! =P
Steamboat. Mmm...
Mushroom Pizza. Hehe...
Did I tell you that waffles and pancakes with maple syrup taste extremely good?
There was actually 3 different kinds of Spaghetti sauce.Only managed to get a shot of 2.
Apple Crumble.Something like apple pie.
5 different kinds of ice-cream with its toppings. Yum...
Desserts anyone? Chocolate cakes...
A sprained thumb,due to futsal,just cause some stupid guy didn't know how to shoot the ball.
Well,its rather pricy,but thanks to Aunt Jo,we had free vouchers.Oh yeah.Yum.Had like 3-4 bowls of ice-cream.It was extremely good.Was planning to take a certain someone,but now,I'm not so sure.I think I better stop here,or I'll go on continuing from the 1st part of my post.Enough said already.
Peace out.Have a good week peeps.All the best to those having exams.Cheers!
-Matt-