Thursday, June 22, 2006
The day when I was given the day off,was the day I had nothing to do.Managed to sleep later than usual yesterday,due to the thriller show that was on TV.Went to bed at 12.I forgot to off my alarm on the clock Linda gave me,so it kinda woke me up at 7.Bleah.Next time I'll double check before I go to sleep.
Hmm,was talking to a friend of mine this morning,who's had already 4 boyfriends,or was it 5?Just recently broke up with her boyfriend after less than 2 weeks,and now,my friend,who was her 4th boyfriend,who dumped her because he put his friends 1st,asked for a 2nd chance,and they're back together.Hmm...this world is getting stranger by the minute.I even asked her,"How can you take so many heartbreaks?" The reply I got? "I kena so many times already,kinda numb." That was kinda shocking.You can actually get numb on such occasions?She's pretty good.
Yesterday,I actually went for prayer meeting.Mum suggested that it'll be good for me.Had to go extra early cause dad had a meeting to discuss about the Couple's Night thingy thats gonna be held this Saturday.For some reason,felt really really uncomfortable listening to them talking about all the activities they're gonna have.Couldn't concentrate or pray during prayer meeting,though I did come back a lil refreshed.Too many things going on in my head, I guess.Dad actually let me drive back yesterday night.1st time I was allowed to drive back at night.So happened,I left my driving license in my wallet,which was sitting at home.But I drove back anywayz.Oops..
Its been a really screwed up day.For some dumb reason,my parents INSISTED on having my dinner with them.Was suppose to go out with Linda and her friend to watch Too Fast Too Furious.Linda got stuck in KL because of the stupid weather,which caused a massive jam.The movie suppose to start at 5,and now,its 4.50.
Ask for permission to go for the other movie,which starts at 6 instead,and my parents said NO,just because they said its too late.Thats a whole load of crap!Coming back at 8 is late?Thats NONSENSE!!!Was so cheesed off,I had a BIG arguement with my mum.So freakin mad!Can't believe it.If only I had my car now,I wouldn't be facing this problem!!Just cause they want me to have dinner with them?Coming back at 8.30 doesn't mean I can't have dinner right?Its just later,thats all.
Sigh...My parents have been terribly overprotective lately,and its getting annoying.Suddenly,a lot of rules seem to pop out of nowhere.Just when I thought I can be open to them,then they 'hit' me back with all this kinda rules.Maybe I'll think twice next time,before letting them know anything. =( Even that day almost couldn't go for The Benchwarmers movie.Sigh...what a life...
Used to question them about all the rules,about why other people supposingly had more freedom.And the same reply will always be given. "We'll let you go as you show yourself to be more and more responsible." What's that mean?I'm not responsible enough and my other friends are?Unreasonable curfews when I'm 18?A quota for the number of outings I'm allowed to go out on?Who I'm going out with?
Thats the thing.Everytime when I wanna go out,there'll be a 101 questions being thrown at me.Well,you might say its normal to ask,how you're going there,or from what time to what time,but who you're going out with?Names?Are they good kids or not?Sometimes,I just wished that I could go out whenever I want,without being interogated or questioned as if I'm under arrest.This was the last straw.
I'm just so cheesed off right now.I don't know what to say.I just want at least the 'rightful' freedom that I should have.I just can't believe this is all happening.Time and time and again,I have asked myself this questions,but due,to being their son,I've learned to accept it.But when times like this happens,I get really really cheesed off.Don't know why some rules are still imposed even at this time.Its like I'm not responsible enough.Argh,hate this!
Signing out,
-Matt-