Wednesday, June 28, 2006
"Bye mum.I'll catch you later.Love you too," as I hurried off to catch my bus to head downtown to meet up with my 'friend' for a movie. "He's all grown up.It happened so fast," said my mum to my dad who was struggling to straighten his tie. "I'm late for work honey.Could you give me a hand?" As my mum helped my dad with his tie,she couldn't help but think back of the time,when it all happened.An event that changed my life,forever.
5 years back...
As the clock ticked towards lunch hour,every move of the clockhand could be heard.It was pin-drop silence,as we sat for our 1st major exam.As I was busy writing,I looked at the time.I began to get sweaty palms,as time slowly went by."Time's up!" shouted my exam moderator.As I hastened my pace,I put the finishing touches to my already messy looking piece of paper that I had written my essay upon.
With a sigh of relief,I handed up my paper,and ajourned to my 'friend's' locker. "Hey,up for lunch?Today's special, Lamb chop with Black Pepper sauce at the cafe across the street." with a gleam on my face. "Sure.How was the exam?" she asked."It was alright." was my reply. Thankful for the long walk and the gentle breeze that blew against our faces,I cherished every single moment I spent with her.
I could tell,that she had a special effect,almost like a spell she put on me.Everytime I'm with her,its as if the world stopped.Everything around us cease to move.I got lost in our world.As she linked her hand with mine,I felt a surge of electricity,that flowed and hit me right in the heart.She was my everything,or so I thought.Suddenly,my cell phone began to vibrate. "Oh hold on a sec sweety,I think my phone's ringing." as I began to reach down into my beg for my phone. "What is it now?" I wondered,as it seemed to disrupt our lovely walk to the cafe.
It was my best friend,wondering whether I would like to tag along as they went to TGI Friday's for lunch. "Sorry pal,I'm in a lunch appointment.Maybe another time." As I bid my friend goodbye,we continued our walk down the street. Things went on pretty well.Life was going the way I wanted it to be.As long as I had her,it didn't matter what came up.I could always overcome whatever challenges that came at me,till it all changed,in a split second,everything was taken away from me.
All it took was for 1 rumour to spread,and my whole life fell apart.I was seen going to the movies with a close friend of mine,and the rumours started to spread. I noticed something was wrong.We were getting distant,colder everytime we tried to spend some time.She started conjuring up reasons for not wanting to go out.Until,she left me a note,in my locker,1 day.It went something like this.
Dear Matt,
I don't understand how you can do this to me.Was it not true?Did my feelings betray me?Or did you cheat me?Why?I don't understand.As I'm writing this very moment,I know,that those rumours were not true,but I just feel,like we'll never ever work out.Maybe I'm wrong,but I can't explain how I feel.I don't know how to.I'm
sorry,it had to end this way.
She ended the note,with her name on the bottom,next to a picture,of a broken heart.As I read that note,I couldn't believe it.I tried calling her for the next few days,but it seemed,she had changed her number.She even changed her sitting position in class with another classmate of ours,and she dared not look me in the eye.She took the initiative to change her locker position as well.
As I searched for answer,I fell into desperation.I never got an answer.I drew back.I isolated myself from the company of my friends.I finished my course within 4 years with a first class honours in a Bachelor of Business Administration,as well as a Masters to accompany the degree I now owned.I started to work,but my colleagues knew me as an unsociable person.I would not mix around,unless I had to.
I dreaded the thought of 'falling' for anyone else.I was in a state of trauma,and my parents knew it all too well.They tried to help me,but facing the wall of futility,they left me to sort it out,praying,hoping that I'll 1 day break out of the barrier that now surrounded me.My life however,took another turn.This time round,for the better.
A new employee,had just joined the company.She looked the shy type.Though at first,I took no notice to her,but for some reason,I had to work with her because of the projects I was involved in,and because our departments had to work together in completing this projects successfully.As time passed,we became best friends.I finally opened up to someone.And we became best of friends.I soon found out,she faced a similiar situation in her past.
It was a matter of time,before we actually decided to go out,but,in a discreet manner.She brought back the joy that I had lost.I found out,that she was such a nice,sweet,and caring person.She was always there for me,whenever I needed her.I discovered back,the passion to love again.A miracle,which I would never have anticipated.A miracle,that came,at the right time.
Thus,after that traumatizing time of my life,I have finally managed,to be me again.For it is with her only,that I find the true joy that I've lost.Its with her,that I can be me again,and never fear,of the consequences,for she has gained my full trust,as my love for her,grows stronger,day by day.
Present time...
"Hey baby,sorry I'm late.Woke up late," was the reply that accompanied the cheeky grin of knowing that I was late. "Its alright,the movie is just about to start." As we entered the cinema's,I was the happiest person on the planet at that very moment.I was happy,to be someone who understands,someone,where I can be...me...
Done by -Matt-
PS: Characters and the story are non-fictional.
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Hello peeps.Hmm...been having a rather tiring,but a rather good week so far.Just went through Accounts and IT exams.Thank God its over!! Think I might be having English exams today.And then next week got Business Maths exam.Sigh...every other week,there's bound to be an exam,or an assignment.Hectic kinda life.
Nothing special happened on Monday.But yesterday,was a full day,but it was like,the best.Haha.After finishing the 2 stupid essays we had for IT,went to 1U for lunch.Had Pizza Hut(They're getting terribly stingy,3 of us paid 30 bucks and I can honestly say,I wasn't completely stuffed).Then we had a game of pool!Real fun stuff.Went to buy tickets too,for the movie I was gonna watch with Linda and her friend.
Though I missed my football game,but it didn't matter.She came and fetched me at around 4.And then she couldn't open her boot for the security check,cause she couldn't find the button.Hehe,it was rather hilarious.But the guard was being terribly sarcastic.Acted like a jerk.Linda was clearly pissed,as she was pointing out how far he had crossed the line on the way to 1U.I couldn't agree more.If I wasn't patient,I would have gotten out of the car and hit the guy for being so rude.He probably didn't understand English as well,cause Linda tried to explain that she was driving a new car,and she's not used to it yet.What a stupid guy!!Sorry Linda! The guards in my college are rather rude.
Bought popcorn,and we went to watch,"The Fast and the Furious:Tokyo Drift." Finally got to watch it.Worth every sen.The movie was really cool.The cars were just the main attraction.Duh! Though it was kinda painful to watch the guy wreck his Evo!!Evo man! The drifting scene's? AWESOME!!! It was like, 'de bomb'.Never really watched this kinda shows,till now.Real cool stuff.Met up with some ex-school mates.
And then,we went to Rock World,and Linda went crazy over a CD she saw,and she just had to buy it.
Must be 1 heck of a good CD for her to go crazy over a CD to the extent of squealing in delight.It was funny watching her get so excited,but then again,I've never seen her this crazy over a CD before.It was nice.She finally let me pay for her tickets and the popcorn! =P It took a whole lot of convincing.
Kinda rushed when I came back.There was a change of plans.So instead of just going to visit Chris at his place,we met up with him at The Curve for dinner.Another 1st since I started college.Never been to The Curve before,can you imagine?Ate at "The Italianese."Had pizza twice in a day.Once for lunch,and then with Chris.I was stuffed to the max.Over ordered.Didn't know the portions were THAT big!Was pretty cool.I got to play with Dylan,undisturbed.He's so adorable.I wanna have my own kids next time.They're just the cutest things on the planet.
Hmm...didn't have a bad day at all today either.Drama is coming up in 2 weeks time.Argh!!Had free lunch today cause Larsson couldn't take the spicy dish he ordered,though after trying it,I couldn't taste any 'spicy-ness'.Poor guy.He paid for my lunch instead.Thanks.Oh,and we bought a new football too.Cool!Some stupid guy went and steal our football,and the guard saw it,but didn't to anything.Told you the guards in my college are brainless.
Bleah,been to 1U 3 times in 2 days.I must be nuts.But its fun.I'm actually enjoying just window shopping.Maybe its cause I'm out with friends.Well,its a long blog,but well,I won't be blogging that often.Doing this mainly cause someone loves to read my blog and requested that I keep it going.So,I'll blog once in awhile. =) You know who you are anonymus.This is for you!
Till we meet again next time,peeps.Have a good week! Peace out! =)
Signing out,
-Matt-